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Monday, February 9, 2015

Anxiety and Suicidal Ideation/attempts.

I realize that in my last post I stated that I would go through the list of symptoms I suffer from, and how they manifest themselves in me.  However, today has been a tough day, and once again,I'm struggling with thoughts of suicide.

There are a number of things that can set me off,and one of the biggest, most regular things, is every second Monday night, wondering whether my pay will be in my bank account in the morning, and what we'll do if it isn't.  Today is that day, but as well as that, I came across my ex-husband's Twitter account when I reopened my account, only to find out that almost two years since I left Canada, he is telling his 'friends' (they've never met, they're Twitter friends), that I was a psychopath, and that his nine year relationship with me was hell.  This coming from the male who refused to let me speak for myself at a GP's visit, (I was misdiagnosed as a result), and controlled me in every way possible, knocked me lower than low.
So anyway, moving on, what are suicidal thoughts?

Suicidal thoughts, also known as suicidal ideation are thoughts about how to kill oneself, which can range from a detailed plan to a fleeting consideration and does not include the final act of killing oneself. The majority of people who experience suicidal ideation do not carry it through. Some may, however, make suicide attempts. Some suicidal ideations can be deliberately planned to fail or be discovered, while others might be carefully planned to succeed.

According to a Finnish study, over one fifth of people who actually died by suicide had discussed their aim with a doctor or other health care professional during their last session.

According to the NHS (National Health Service), during the last 20 years suicide rates in the UK have been steadily dropping. In 2006 there were 5,554 completed suicides among people aged at least 15 years. 140,000 people are hospitalized annually in England and Wales after suicide attempts. Three-quarters of all UK suicides are in males, with the highest risk among those aged 25 to 34 years, followed by 35 to 44 years. After accidental death, suicide is the second most common cause of death in males aged 15 to 44.

The NHS adds that according to its research, nearly all completed suicides are among individuals with a mental illness, for example, depression. Approximately ten to fifteen per cent of patients with bipolar disorder die prematurely due to suicide. About 4% of individuals with schizophrenia die by suicide, usually not long after the onset of symptoms.

What Are the Signs and Symptoms of Suicidal Thoughts?

 A symptom is something the patient senses and describes, while a sign is something other people, such as the doctor notice. For example, drowsiness may be a symptom while dilated pupils may be a sign.

  • Appearing to feel trapped or hopeless
  • Appearing to have an abnormal preoccupation with violence, dying and/or death
  • Being in a heightened state of anxiety
  • Being very moody
  • Changing personality
  • Changing routine
  • Changing sleeping patterns
  • Consuming (more) drugs
  • Consuming more alcohol
  • Engaging in risky behavior, such as driving carelessly or taking drugs
  • Getting affairs in order
  • Getting hold of a gun, medications, or substances that could end a life
  • Giving stuff away
  • Having depression
  • Having panic attacks
  • Impaired concentration
  • Increased self-criticism
  • Isolating oneself
  • Psychomotor agitation - such as pacing around a room, wringing one's hands, taking off clothing and putting it back on, and other such actions
  • Saying goodbye to others as if it were the last time
  • Seeming to be unable to experience pleasurable emotions from normally pleasurable life events such as eating, exercise, social interaction or sex
  • Seeming to have severe remorse
  • Talking about killing oneself, expressing regret about being alive or ever having been born.

What are the causes of suicidal thoughts?

Suicidal ideation is a feeling people may have when they are no longer able to cope with an overwhelming situation, which could be financial, the death of somebody they love, breaking up, or a devastating/debilitating illness. There may be a feeling of bleakness and an erroneous assumption that taking their own life might be the answer. If the individual's mental state is heightened enough, suicide may seem to be the only exit.

Experts believe there may be a genetic factor associated with a higher risk of suicide. Individuals with suicidal thoughts, or those who have taken their own lives tend to have a family history of suicide or suicidal thoughts.

The most common situations or life events that might cause suicidal thoughts are grief, sexual abuse, financial problems, remorse, rejection, relationship breakup and unemployment. Certain psychiatric factors are linked to a higher risk of suicidal ideation, including:

  • Adjustment disorder
  • Anorexia nervosa
  • Bipolar disorder
  • Body dysmorphic disorder
  • Borderline personality disorder
  • Dissociative identity disorder
  • Gender Dysphoria (Gender Identity Disorder)
  • Major depressive disorder
  • Panic disorder
  • Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)
  • Schizophrenia
  • Social anxiety disorder
  • Substance abuse.
The following risk factors may have an impact on suicidal ideation probability:
  • A family history of mental illness/problems
  • A family history of substance abuse
  • A family history of violence
  • A family history of suicide
  • A feeling of hopelessness
  • A feeling of seclusion or loneliness
  • Being homosexual with no family/home support
  • Being in trouble with the law
  • Being under the influence of alcohol or drugs
  • For children, having disciplinary, social or school problems
  • Having a problem with substance abuse
  • Having a psychiatric disorder or mental illness
  • Having attempted suicide before
  • Reckless or impulsive behavior
  • The possession of guns
  • Sleep deprivation.

Prevention

Mental illness is the most common cause of suicidal ideation and completed suicide. A significant number of mental problems, such as depression, can be successfully treated with medications and talking therapies, such as CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) or counseling. Individuals with a mental illness/problem should see their doctor and get treatment.

The following may help lower the risk of suicidal ideation and suicide attempts:

  • Adherence (compliance) - this means following your treatment plan, going to follow-up appointments, taking medications as instructed, etc.
  • Alcohol and illegal drugs - avoid them
  • Avoid isolation - try to stay connected to the outside world
  • Do exercise
  • Eat a well-balanced, healthy diet
  • Family - involve your family in treatment, get their support. Ask them to come along to your sessions, health care professionals can help them acquire better coping and supportive skills
  • Focus on the good things in life (talking therapies may help you achieve this)
  • Get at least 7 to 8 hours continuous sleep every 24-hour period
  • Get treatment for a mental illness
  • Means of ending one's life - get rid of guns, knives and dangerous drugs.
  • Seek out things that give you pleasure, such as being with friends/family you like
  • Self help groups - sharing the anguish and anxieties that drive you towards suicidal ideation can be relieving and comforting. You will see how others got through it. If you can support other people you may feel better about yourself and those around you.

 Given how I've felt all day yesterday, and the fact that I've felt even worse today, I can quite honestly state that I could very well end up in A&E tonight.  The thoughts are there, they're getting stronger, and they tend to get to a point where I can no longer ignore them.  I can only be so strong, for so long, and then I crumble.

I know I can't keep doing this.  The guilt hurts like hell, but then, so does all the other pain that comes with being a sufferer of Generalized Anxiety disorder, Social Anxiety disorder, and depression.  As yet, I haven't manage to work out if the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train or not.

 

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